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Current Location:School
Subject:Looking Better
Time:02:11 pm
Current Mood:awakeawake
Things are starting to look better!  I hope it stays going well for the rest of the week  *crosses fingers*

I FINALLY got my iPhone in the mail!  I missed the FedEx guy the first time because I was at work, but I was home between work and needing to leave school for about 20 minutes, and he randomly stopped back by!  I only got about one playlist installed back on it before I had to leave for school, but once I get home and actually stay home for a while, my phone should be just like it was again  ^^;  

I'm feeling better to!  I still have a slight cough, and my nose is stuffy/runny, but nothing I can't handle  ^_^

I worked out the money thing with my mother as well.  I don't have to get a second job after all!  I still owe, but I can pay it off over the semester.  It's really good that I don't have to get a second job for many reasons.  I would have had a really hard time working around all the homework and studying that I have to do, in addition to working my other job.  I know my school work would have suffered in the end. 

Though I did find a job I wanted!  It was going to be a dog trainer at the Petco in town (if I could work that part time), but I have a few issues with Petco.  I know I would take the class into my own hands, and probably deviate from what they wanted me to do because I am actively researching dog psychology, and would want to give the paying customers all the tools I could to make sure they have a happy, healthy, balanced dog.  I tend to be kinda blunt about certain things, and in this VERY Christian conservitive town, I'm not sure how well things would go over.  Not to mention trying to explain stuff to my boss.   Most people don't like being told that their dog is a DOG.  *sarcastic* No way!  Your dog is not a human, they have different psychology than us, and when we humanize them and treat them like a person, we are doing them much more harm than good.  How most people 'spoil' thier dog is like how they would spoil a person, and that can create SO many problems, such as aggression.  It'd just be better if I got formal training in being a dog trainer and behavioralist, and then made that my living.  I'd be totally happy doing that!  But, they don't make much money, and for me, that is the end thing.  I'll still enjoy my work as a pathologists assistant, but I won't love it like I would if I was working with dogs. 

Also, I think Petsmart is MUCH better than Petco, so I have a personal bias against Petco to begin with.  I've never had a 'normal' job, so I'm not sure how well I'd take being bossed around like I hear so many of my friends complain about.  The main reason I'm glad I'm not going to apply for Petco is because I'd have to wait a month before I could apply, and my job will probably be gone by then.   As you can imagine, the last few days especially have been very depressing, and I smoked a little.  The next day I realized Petco does drug testing, hence waiting a month to apply >.<  Yeah . . . my bad. 

Lets hope this week goes well!  I have my first German exam tomorrow, so I've got a study date with that one boy.  I'm not annoyed any more, so that's good. 

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Current Location:Her apt
Subject:Bad Times
Time:12:19 pm
Current Mood:distresseddistressed

FYI: I kinda complain/rant in this post, and talk about a boy >.< *hates doing anything girly in any way*  You have been warned.

So, this has been an interesting week that turned horrid.  Well, a little over a week actually.  It started last Friday.  To start off the day, I woke up with a cold >.<  Then one of the boys in my German class asked me if I wanted to be study buddies.  Yes, I know what that’s code for, but I thought I could at least get some studying done.  We met at café Q, which is a small café in the engineering building, and did German homework.  It’s a common spot where groups meet to work, besides the library.  We ended up talking a lot, and his company was actually enjoyable. 

He and I met again Monday to studying, and ended up talking and not studying, lol.  Afterward, I walked home kinda giddy, it was weird!  I admit I had been considering him and what I’d do if he asked me out.  At this point I was on the borderline between yes and no.  We hung out again on Tuesday to do homework, and ended up talking for hours, but I didn’t get the same giddy feeling.  At some point in the conversation we talked about wanting to get in shape and going to the gym.  He proposed that we go to the gym together. 

So, on Wednesday we went to the gym.  For some reason, he kinda annoyed me.  I have no idea why!  I’ve been trying to pin point it, but I’m still clueless.  I got a good work out from it though.  Maybe we were just spending too much time together?  Yet, when I think about hanging out with him, and it’s been awhile since we spoke, I still get this slightly annoyed feeling.  *shakes head*  I don’t know.  He asked me out to a movie, and I said I was too busy.  I am ridiculous busy this weekend, but I know I’m going to have to tell him there’s no chance romantically.  I hate hurting peoples feelings >.<  I hope this annoyed feeling goes away soon, so I can at least keep going to the gym with him and cultivate a friendship.  I’ll be at school longer than my friend Nicole, and I don’t even want to think about how lonely it will be when she’s gone.

On Thursday, I broke my iPhone *cries* I don’t quite know how I broke it, but I must have because the home button, mic, speakers, and recharge slot don’t work!  I’m supposed to be getting a new one today, but still.  My baby is broken, and I know it’s my fault!  *sobs* It’s going to cost $200 for the new phone, which means I either need to start working a hell of a of a lot more, or get a second job.  I’m looking at coffee places first, then I’ll branch out to grocery store jobs and Target or Walmart jobs.  I’ll definitely look at retail jobs.  If at all possible I don’t want to work at any sort of food joint.   Do I honestly have time to get a second job and not have it affect my studies?  No, I don’t have time, but I already owe my parents money.  With this extra $200 added on top, I’m screwed  *shrugs, accepting her fate* I can’t stand being in debt, and I refuse to dip into savings.  I always have this extra tension when I owe money, and it really starts to wear me down after a while. 

I was looking over bills on Thursday too, and I got so angry!  The tiniest things started to annoy the hell out of me.  I can’t remember the last time I got that aggravated.  I tried taking deep breaths, but it didn’t work.  I remember turning on my space heater (for some reason my apartments been at about 62 degrees Fahrenheit), and it didn’t work, again!  It’d been fritzing out on me for a few weeks now.  That apparently was the last straw, because I totally smashed it on the floor repeatedly until it was in pieces.   *can’t believe she did that*  I never get that angry!  I totally lost control.  When I realized what I’d done, I wanted to cry.  I’ve been doing that switch a lot over the past few days, the either really angry or about to cry thing.  I know that means I’m under too much stress, but I can’t do anything about it.  I still have a cold by the way, and blowing my nose every 5 minutes is starting to get old.

Last night, to put icing on the cake, Anika ran away for the first time in Manhattan.  I got her back about 20 minutes later, but still.  We’d been working off leash for weeks now with no problem at all, and she just took off!  She’d been doing so well!  *sighs*  It’s back to the leash for a while, obviously.

I can’t help but think that my dogs must think I’m crazy, and wonder why they are here with this unstable person.  I bet that’s why Anika didn’t listen to me last night . . .

I hope the rest of the weekend goes well.  I do have a ton of stuff to do.  Hopefully I can do a lot of it why installing all my stuff onto my new iPhone *takes a moment for her fallen iPhone and cuddles it’s broken body*.  I have been putting Organic Chemistry on the back burner *bangs head on wall* So, I’ve designated Fridays as my Org. Chem. Day.  I have a lot of History reading to catch up on, I need to write another pre-lab, and yes, the first one did take about 8 hours so this one will take at least 6.  I also have a bunch of online German homework that was assigned just this week.  I have absolutely no idea how long the German will take.  All and all, I could use a week off of school just to catch up.   Getting well would be nice too  *blows nose yet again*

Can next week be good? Please?

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Current Location:My apt
Subject:Nothing in particular
Time:02:54 pm
Current Mood:busybusy
So, it's the new semester  *sighs*  I'm a little worried about how I'm going to do.   I'm taking German 1, Organic Chemistry, and History of the Maya, Aztec and Inca.  I'm really enjoying my German class so far, and have high hopes for it.  The history course is looking very interesting!  But there is a draw back of having a TON of reading, and I'm already behind T__T  I know I can catch up, but it's going to take many hours that I know will end up being taken from sleeping time.  It's the chemistry I'm most worried about  >.<  We have been warned that the first pre-lab will take 8-ish hours to write . . . yeah.  *cries* 

I signed up for the Tuesday/Thursday Organic Chemistry Lecture, but some how I ended up in the online course  *absolutely hates the k-state website*.  This will be my first online course, and I'm a little worried about it.  I have a bad tendency to procrastinate, and I'm afraid that if I don't have set classes to go to, and set exam dates (I can honestly take the exams when ever, as long as they are taken this semester), then I'm going to put this class on the back burner.  I really hope that doesn't happen.  Any suggestions as to what I could do so that doesn't happen?

Oh!  And of course, in this very busy time, my muse is demanding that I start writing.  I try, and have written some, but not nearly enough to appease my muse.  As a result, I day dream and get lost in my head a LOT more than I normally do (which is very often anyway).  It makes doing homework and studying very difficult. 

On a different note, the animals are all doing very well, and I hope you are too!

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Current Location:Parent's house
Subject:The Holidays
Time:11:42 pm
Current Mood:tiredtired

I’m done with school!  So now its off to the holiday races ^^;


I finished with an A in psychology, a B in Principles of Biology, and a C in Organismic Biology.   I don’t like the C, but I gave it my best shot and that’s what I got.  I might re-take it this summer. 


I still work as a model, and I still enjoy the job.  I’ve made some acquaintances that have the potential to become friends, but I’m not sure.  I’ve met them through work, and to be honest, I’m better friends with the professors I work for than any one else on campus ^^;


About a month after I moved in I lost my beloved rat Shika.  She had a cancerous tumor, and when she caught pneumonia, I knew it was her time.  She was almost three.  I still have the 2 ferrets, the 2 dogs, and my betta fish.  They are all healthy and happy  ^_^  They are all back with me at my parents house now, though to be honest, I like being in Manhattan better.  I’ve set up my home there, you know?  When I’m back with my parents, I’m just visiting and I don’t have most of my stuff or my food.  I miss my food!  *sighs* 


I’ve gotten a lot more into dog psychology, and am always working with my dogs now.  I find it very enjoyable!  I can’t imagine being without my pack now.  But of course, I can’t bring the dogs with me to grandmas for Christmas.  Grandma is terrified she’s going to trip over the dogs and break her hip.  I can’t blame her for that and I understand, but I still hate leaving them.   She thought I wouldn’t understand her reasons for wanting me to leave them . . .  sometimes I swear she still thinks I’m 10 or something.   Of course I get why!  How could I not understand that she’s scared of tripping over them?  Though, when she’s over here and tries to make the dogs move, she just kinda shakes her hands and mumbles ‘shoo,’ to which my dogs just look at her like she’s crazy, lol, and obviously don’t move.  Which, just adds to her being scared of tripping over them if she can’t get them to move out of her way, and she does have a small house.


We originally weren’t going to go to grandmas for Christmas, but she just can’t travel any more.  We’re worried this might be her last Christmas, but I hope not.  She writes me all the time and I keep all her letters in a file folder. 


Well, on the up side, I can finally catch up on hexfiles!!!!!!!  I haven’t been able to read ANYTHING all semester! T____T  So, now I can!  I’ve already been up till 5am reading – just like the good ol’ days.  Hopefully I can catch up before school starts again!


Next semester I’m taking German 1, Organic Chemistry, and History of the Aztecs, Maya Inca.   I’m looking forward to it, but not the 7:05am lab that goes with the Organic Chem class.  Oh well, at least I get EVERY FRIDAY OFF!!  It’s always going to be a 3 day weekend  ^_^


Off to reading!


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Time:12:02 am
Current Mood:pessimisticpessimistic
 Hello!  It’s been a while! ^_^

I thought I’d give an update of things, and procrastinate studying for my three exams next week!!  T__T  I am sick of studying.  I had two exams this past week, and one the week before *sighs*  In two weeks I have all my exams together again, and I get to take 4 in a week!  *bangs head on wall*

Any way,

Lets start of with work.  I now work as a model for the art department.  I get to stand nude in front of people, and get paid $12 an hour.  It’s actually kinda relaxing, lol.  Weird, I know, but I just get to sit and/or lie down and just let my mind wander.  The room is completely quiet, which is something I don’t hear, ever.  So, it’s nice.  The woman I baby sit for goes tanning, not necessarily for the tanning, but because it’s so quiet.  I didn’t really understand it when she was telling me about it, but now I do. 

School: Organismic Biology is hard, and if I want to get above a C I’m going to have to put a lot more time into it.  I got a C in both the class exam and the lab exam, and I studied really hard for them! T__T  I know I can do better, so I’m a little disappointed in my self now.  But, I know what to expect for the next ones, so I’m going to study even harder this time! 

Biology is time consuming, but easy.  I got 100% on the last exam.  There’s another one this Monday, and I hope I do just as well, but there is a part of me that doubts it.  I’ve never gotten a 100% on an exam before, so I don’t know if it will stick ^^;

Psychology is boring.  The teacher is entertaining, and fun to listen to, but I hate the students in the class.  They talk, and the stuff they talk about is SO immature!  I just want to turn around and tell them to shut up.  I would drown them out with headphones, but then I’ll miss what the teacher is saying.  I have my first exam in that class this Tuesday, and it’s looking easy.  I hope it is *crosses fingers*

 The students on the campus are . . . well,  all there is, is cow boys, cow girls, preps, and a very large Asian population.  There are no Goths, punks, not even an emo!   At least not that I’ve seen *sighs*  I’m starting to get really sick of all the ‘happy’ *shudders*

Friends: Yeah, still no friends.  My only friend here is Nicole, and you can only spend so much time with one person, you know?  I’ve started to become really antisocial, what with the combination of no friends and studying all the time.  I only go out for school, errands, and to walk the dogs.  The rest of the time I’m inside, usually studying.  At least I like my apartment.  I really miss my friends back home.  I miss just dropping by Jesse’s place and chillin porch, where there was always someone, and talking about everything and nothing.

The pets are all good.  I’ve been working with my dogs a bit.  I’ve been training them so that when I put them on stay, and call one of them, just that one comes and the other one stays.  They are actually getting it pretty well!  Just a little bit more work and they’ll have it down.  I got a Betta fish.  He’s blue, and the only name I get when I look at him is Bartholomew (click the next picture link at the top, I have a few pics of him).  So that’s his name.   My rat is still good!  The tumors aren’t affecting her that much, which I’m very grateful for.  The ferrets are good as well, and all vaccinated for the year ^_^

 In other news, I’ve discovered a new band I like!  Their called Tokio Hotel.  I’m really liking their stuff, especially Durch den Monsun.  It helps to kill all the excess ‘prep’ that’s around here. 

 I think being here is brining out the cynical bitterness in me . . .

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Subject:New Apartment!
Time:02:45 pm
Current Mood:awakeawake
 I’m all moved in!   So far it’s been pretty fun.  I have my dogs with me as well as my ferrets and my rat.  All creatures have settled in well and are doing well.  I live in a house that has been converted into 4 different apartments.  So far, only two other people have moved in.  The other two people living hear are both young men.  One lives above me, and he seems pretty cool.   The other lives across the hall from me, and he JUST moved in.  School starts tomorrow, and I’ve only got one class, so it won’t be to bad ^_^  I am thinking about getting a betta fish.  Random, I know, but that’s in one of the pictures I have an empty betta bowl. 


I put pictures of my Apartment in this gallery.  It's in my scrapbook pages.


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Current Location:Home
Subject:Sleep Study Results and Moving
Time:06:28 pm
Current Mood:hungryhungry
According to the sleep study, I have periodic limb movement disorder, which is in the same family as restless leg syndrome.  My thyroid, thankfully, is just fine, though I do have a very low iron count which I am now taking supplements for.  For me, this periodic limb movement disorder means I have about 26 leg jerks per hour, and 17% of those will wake me up.  No wonder I can't sleep all night!  My doctor prescribed mirapex to help me.  It is also used for people with Parkinson disease.  It’s one of those drugs where you have to slowly introduce it into your system, and you have to slowly get off of it as well or you’ll have withdrawal.  So, I’m a little scared of it, but hopefully it will be worth it. 

In other new, I’m moving!  I’m moving out the 3rd of August to Manhattan Kansas to attend K-State University.  I’ve changed my major to pre-med and am looking at being a Pathologist Assistant.  It’s a not well-known job that pays 75 thousand and up a year when you’re fresh out of college.  One of the many reasons I’m seriously looking at it, besides the well paying part, is because there’s only a few years of school, and still have a large amount of responsibility, but not as much as if I had DM.  In all honesty, I don’t think I could handle the stress of being a doctor.  I worry about the little stuff, and that could very easily drive me insane if I have too much to be responsible for . . . like peoples lives . . .  My good friend Nicole is helping me move out, and she’s also going to be my neighbor, so I’m pretty exited about that  ^_^

A bit of sad news, I’ll be putting my rat Eve to sleep tomorrow.  She’s got something neurologically wrong with her and her head is completely tilted to one side so it’s parallel to the ground . .  . if that makes sense.  Instead of moving in a straight line, she just rolls over and over and over.  It wasn’t that bad a few days ago but over this past weekend it’s gotten progressively worse.  My dad thinks she had a stroke at some point.  She also has a large tumor on her side *sighs* I love rats as pets, but they’re so inbred now a days you just can’t find one with out respiratory problems and/or being a tumor factory.

When I move out, I’m leaving her sister, Shika, at home.  Normally, I’d take her with me, but if I did take her with me I’d put her in a smaller cage (it’s a small apartment) and that is where the problem is: Shika is completely blind.  She has been for over a year.  She knows the cage (huge three story cage) that she’s in now.  She’s about 2 and ½ years old (same as her sister Eve), which is very old for a rat.  I don’t want to move a blind, old rat out when she’s most likely only going to live for a few months more anyway.  She has a tumor that’s in her low abdomen next to all her plumbing, so I’m going to be watching her really closely, I don’t want her to suffer if it cuts off her ability to relive herself. 

Well, I’m off to dinner.  Have a great day!
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Time:09:21 am
Current Mood:tiredtired
So, I'm taking my summer accounting class and have found it boring.  No surprise there, lol, though I did get an A on our first test.  Speaking of, I should be studying for my accounting test tomorrow, but I'll just do it this afternoon  ^^; I’m looking at being a Pathologists Assistant now.  It was a recommended field from many of my dad’s coworkers (he works in pathology and histology at a local hospital).  I'm still researching it, but so far it is looking promising.

And now, for the big news!! *Drum roll* I got an iPhone!  *Dances* on my old phone the keyboard went out, so I just eliminated that problem with my new phone  ^_^  Yes, I forked over a small fortune (for me) for it, and I still have a little knot in my gut from just how much money I spent, but the more I work with the phone and see just how much I can do with it, the more that knot is going away  ^_^  It really is like a small lap top, it's just incredible!

Right now I'm also house/dog sitting for a friend of the family, and am even getting paid to spend the night!  Last night was my second night there, though Anika got to sleep over with me, but just like the first night I woke up about every 20 min  >.<  When I already have sleep issues on top of that, it's been making me REALLY tired lately  *sigh*  I went to the doc for my sleep issues of waking up at least 2 to 6 times a night every night for the past few years, and he thinks I either have a thyroid problem, or have a form of restless legs syndrome.  Hopefully I'll get the test results back soon!

Well, I shouldn't procrastinate any more, off to studying!  >.<
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Subject:Meme about yourself ^_^
Time:07:39 pm
Current Mood:apatheticapathetic
A meme!!  From the lovely eyesemerald 

1. Can you cook?
2. What was your dream growing up?
3. What talent do you wish you had?
4. Favorite place?
5. Favorite vegetable?
6. What was the last book you read?
7. What zodiac sign are you?
8. Any Tattoos and/or Piercings?
9. Worst Habit?
10. Do we know each other outside of lj?
11. What is your favorite sport?
12. Negative or Optimistic attitude?
13. What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
14. Worst thing to ever happen to you?
15. Tell me one weird fact about you:
16. Do you have any pets?
17. Do you know how to do the macarana?
18. What time is it where you are now?
19. Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
20. If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?
21. Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
22. What color eyes do you have?
23. Ever been arrested?
24. Bottle or Draft?
25. If you won $10,000 dollars today, what would you do with it?
26. What kind of bubble gum do you prefer to chew?
27. What 's your favorite bar to hang at?
28. Do you believe in ghosts?
29. Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
30. Do you swear a lot?
31. Biggest pet peeve?
32. In one word, how would you describe yourself?
33. Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?

I look forward to your answers!

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Time:09:14 am
Current Mood:chipperchipper
So, yesterday was my last final *cheers*  and I got up at 4am to study for it: it was at 8am.  I am never taking an 8am class again *shudders*  Especially while working the morning shift on Saturdays, leaving me just Sunday for sleep . . . Anyway!  the day before I made a window seat for my new dog, Ankia.  She loves watching the world go by  ^_^  Around 5:20amish,  I looked up from my studying and saw this:

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My first thought was "I am Anika, the all seeing, flying money Oracle!  That'll be 5 dolla"  *chuckles*  Her nickname is the flying money, like from Wizard of Oz.  She jumps so high!  it's like she's flying.  Thus, her nickname was born.  ^_^ 

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